ode to a girl and a girl and a boy

27 01 2009


how did you kids pick me as your mother?  you must have known that i needed you in my life.

my boy, you are so quick to share your smile.  i think i need to record your laugh because i am convinced it could cure the worst depression.  while your twin sister is doing the infant river dance and scooting around the floor on her back, you are happy to do nothing (although we have caught you rolling all over your crib, so we know you can do it).  in fact, you don’t even turn your head when you plant your face on the floor refusing to partake in tummy time.  you are such a funny gentle boy.  however,  i don’t actually find it all that funny that you started saying “dadda” today.  clear as day.  “dadda” while i changed your really poopy diaper.  “dadda” in little breaks during nursing this morning.  “dadda” as i played with you and fed you sweet potato and apple in the evening.  “dadda” when i walked in your room after your nap.

i got my revenge though.  as you were saying “dadda”, i dressed you like a silly tv character and took your photo.  you want to learn how to say “mommy” now?


oh my litttle clover.  i found out today what is crankier than the chicken…  the chicken with a fever.  i really hope that you are just cutting that matching tooth on the bottom because if anyone does not need to have more problems, it is you.  you are tough though.  feisty and wiry and funny as heck.  you scream and you screech and you say “psthhhssssthhhhhh” and you grab every toy and binkie from your brother.  you don’t need them, you just can get them, so you do.  you will be out of your crib early, i can tell.  i put you down and before i leave the room, you are to the opposite end wedged in the corner hatching your plan to escape.  i hope i am smart enough to keep up with your curiosity as you grow.  i could never imagine having a child like you and now, i can’t imagine life without a child like you.

tomorrow, my big girl starts school.  again.  when we moved here almost a year ago (where has that time gone?), gemma started a lovely school.  one of the many changes for her in 2008.  she is starting a new school tomorrow.  i am so proud of her and her strength.  so i will take photos of the new (cute!) uniform and i will tell you that it will all be great and i will wave and hug and turn to go and i will cry while i walk home.  you will do fantastic, i will be fine.  gemma, as much as we drive each other crazy spending every day together, i will miss you like mad and will be counting the hours until 3 when i can see that smile of yours.  i will be practicing my new “buddhism lite” skills and let my attachments go…i will live in the moment.  one thing though, did you have to break my heart today and say “zeh-brah” instead of “zee-bra”?  really?  like it was no big deal.  just like that.  you have an accent.  now i can add you to the list of people here i misunderstand on a daily basis.

isn’t it amazing how everyones kids are perfect for them?

a few i never shared from (way) back in december…how the 2 months of summer break have flown by.






14 responses

27 01 2009
christine Gill

all that just broke my heart in the very sweetest way.

27 01 2009

Aww. Such joy. Someone just commented if Gemma had an accent yet in your Flickr stream, too funny.
You write so well, how bout a children’s book about the adventures of two down under sisters and their brother? Ha ha like you have time.

27 01 2009

I’m all teary readnig your post. Such beautiful confessions from a mother to her kids. Different but with the same love.
Rachel you are a great mother and you will stay being one in their lives. Don’t ever stop believing in yourself.
Kieran looks exactly like Gemma when she was a baby in the second photo. How sweet.
All the best to Gemma tomorrow! Hugs.

27 01 2009

Wishing Gemma a wonderful 1st day of school and sending your lovely mommy heart contented vibes tomorrow. So lovely to hear you all settling in to your new lives in your new hemisphere. G xx

27 01 2009

This is so beautiful to read. I feel like I am right there. The joy and love that you bring each other is so heart warming. I loved reading this. And I agree, a children’s book would be so amazing.

27 01 2009

Beautiful as always. A couple tears were shed…

28 01 2009

I love that one of Gemma and Clover. So much.

28 01 2009

Your words to your children are SO filled with love that even I swell with love. So beautiful.

28 01 2009

You have such a way with words Rachel 🙂 Very touching. Your kids are so gorgeous.

28 01 2009

Now I understand what the big deal is about you (I mean that in the most reverent way). You pour your heart out and teach through your trials and errors. I enjoyed reading your blog–thank you for sharing and for reminding me that motherhood is indeed a gift.

28 01 2009

So adorable (:

29 01 2009

this was just a beautiful post. and, you know, zeh-bra… that’s so funny. make sure you get lots of her talking on tape with her “american” accent so you can play it back for her when she’s old and full-blown aussie.

29 01 2009

You write like you photograph, perfectly and with such heart. Love these words and photos.

30 01 2009

hope you keep this post on paper somewhere, b/c when your kids are grown they will love and appreciate these words. you love, frank honesty, and humor are refreshing. just found your blog and very happy to have done so.

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